This Candle

I burn my candle at both ends. We all know this. I work full-time and go to graduate school, again, full-time. I must be both a gluten for punishment and a gluten for poverty. I continue to accumulate student loans while training to go into a field that will not pay me shit. I feel like I must do it for the greater good. I am not greedy and not a "climb-the-ladder" type of guy. I care about humanity.

It will not last the night. I am exhausted. I really am. I feel like I am going 100mph all the time. I am thankful I dropped that third class and am wondering if something else is going to have to give. We shall see but I have been doing this awhile now and do not know if I can keep it up. I tell you though, I do not have much of a choice, so we carry on.

It gives a lovely light. I hope I am not so transparent that people know I am about to snap. Alas, many say you can read it all over my face. At the same time, it was just a week ago that people were telling me how I had a glow. It comes and it goes. I long to keep the light while realizing I am burning my candle at both ends.