Just Another Old Love Song

Today I do not feel grateful for much. It was a down right lousy day. I won't bore you with the emotionally wrenching details. Emotionally wrenching is descriptive enough, right?!? But I do enjoy sitting here watching The Wolverine and Tuxedo Boy working it out WWE style. That is something to be grateful for. If nothing else, it sure makes me laugh. So yeah, I am grateful for laughter.

Women. Lets just put it that way. I am kind of one of them and I still do not understand them. Maybe they are not for me to understand. A million mile mystery. They are so strange to me. Each one of them is so different, no wonder I can never comprehend one. It's just a matter of trying to pay attention. But mostly, staying true to myself.

I am just going to say this. Positive affirmations. I am a great person with so much to offer and I deserve someone wonderful. I will wait to find her. She exists and is probably on her own journey getting ready for the time where her and I meet, face to face. Hey, it might sound like a dream, but it's my dream.

Grateful

You know, the past two weeks have been so good to me. I must be doing something right to be able to be this blessed by the universe. As you probably read, I sat on the floor of the Nuggets/Lakers game. Two nights later I was lucky enough to get invited to a very interesting event. It was a production of Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat. Put on by everyday folks in a choir, at a church. You read that right. I walked into a church for the first time in 10 years (minus those that housed AA meetings). I sat surrounded by a crowd of good old fashioned church going folks. It was surreal.

Two days later I was granted the best gift I have ever received. I watched a young man get a new heart. The heart is my ruler. I follow my heart always. To be able to hold a young mans heart in my hands and have it beat. I couldn't have been more blessed. At that moment, a calm came over me that was so fabulous. It was as if I had reached a place of serenity. I will strive for that feeling always.

Today I got to spend the day with my mom and sister. How I love them both. The decision to move back to Colorado was never the wrong thing to do. I wanted them to know me as Liz. Not the drunk. Not Liz with a drink in her hand. I wanted to get to know them without the fog of alcohol in my brain. The past three years have been strange and totally wonderful getting to find out what amazing people my mom and sister are. I am so blessed to have them in my life.

I am entirely grateful today. Oh, and the Nuggets are on tonight. Go Nuggets. Oh, and a girl has a crush on me and I think I have a crush right back.

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

The Heart Transplant

Last night I witnessed a miracle. I watched as a heart transplant occurred, right in front of my very eyes. As the opened his chest, I was in awe. As they cut back slowly, the heart began to appear. Beating under the flesh. I was 5 feet away from a surgery that few people get to see.

As they slowly and patiently removed the bad heart, it was handed to a gentleman. "Grab some gloves," he said to me. As I put on gloves, the heart still warm out of the body, he handed it to me. I was suddenly holding a beating heart in my hands. Thump, thump. Thump, thump. In my hands. He snapped pictures. It was the most surreal moment I have ever had. Almost spiritual. It was something incredible. A miracle.

The new heart was placed in his chest cavity. After being sewn in and being shocked, the new heart pinked up and started to beat. It was like watching an act of God. Or an amazing gift of science. Either way, it was the most fabulous thing I've ever done and seen. I am so glad that I put myself out there and made my watching a transplant a possibility.

I am so very grateful today for the work I do. I understand it in a whole new way. The world looks different today. I am more calm. I am so very grateful for all the people I work with who do this every day.

Nuggets vs. Lakers - Court side

So, you read that right. Tonight I get to go to the Nuggets/Lakers game and sit court side. I couldn't be happier. It's like my idea of heaven. My friend surprised me with these tickets, which makes it even better. Free tickets to a court side game of this magnitude? Felix is my hero. I'll be on TV tonight for sure. Just an amazing experience.

Watching basketball is so awesome to me. The athletes have to be so grateful. Watching them is quite, well, it sounds cheesy, but it's majestic. They are so gifted. I can't wait to be up close to see all the facial expressions and to hear what they say. Clearly, I am beaming. Getting to see my boys JR Smith and Aaron Afflalo in person is going to be incredible. Today is like my birthday but better.