Humanity

Man, I feel like a lot is going on lately with humanity, or lack there of. Is it the painful experience for those at the holiday's that make them snap? I mean, I know I am having a hell of a time this lovely holiday season. My fuse is short and my tongue is sharp. I am not proud of any of this. I struggle immensely with it all. I try.

My uncle was neglected, beaten, and left for dead. He remains in a coma, kidneys shot. I pray he makes it, but his situation was so terrible, what would be best for him? No one knows but him. I give him strength to make the decision to fight or let go. I love him, that's all I need to know.

A child was brought into The Children's Hospital with severe brain damage and cigarette burns all over his arms and legs. He was only 3 weeks old. How could parents do this to their child, hell, a 3 week old helpless baby?

My friend asked her girlfriend to leave her house because their relationship was over. This girl stole her computer, cameras, clothes, and an external hard drive with invaluable pictures. Some people are severely heartless.

I was told today that I am insane, crazy really and that "everyone" thinks that about me. Well, I don't know where to put that. I am not the most stable person I've ever met, but I am not insane. My friends don't seem to think I am insane. But I let it get inside me and hurt me. It breaks my heart. Always. Should I care? No. The people who think this don't matter to me. My heart hurts.

A co-worker's best friend drank a bottle of vodka, walked into the garage, started the car, and fell asleep. Was it suicide, was she going to drive somewhere and pass out? What was so wrong to make this happen?

Like I said, maybe it's the holidays or maybe most of us are simply insane. I can't figure it out and the more I try, the crazier I get. Maybe I am self-destructing. Just maybe. I don't know. I wish I knew.