Sitting in the quiet.

Like always, my brain was running overtime.   I was tired of thinking, re-thinking, and thinking about it again.  So, I decided I was giving it too much energy, so I stopped.  I just stopped. Stopped talking, stopped wishing, stopped caring.  I was finally pushed too far.  It was all to abusive.  It had to end.  I watch myself now, should I text? No.  It'll only open up a dialogue not worth having.  I put the phone down.  

Used to being sent texts all day, every day, it is now quiet.  There is no more of a constant cringe every time my phone goes off.  I wasn't worried because I knew that everyone who would be contacting me wouldn't be writing to put me down.  It was a relief.  I sit now in the quiet, slightly uncomfortable and a little more anxious.  However, I seem to be smiling more and enjoying the world.  I think I forgot to see the beauty every day.