It is Christmas Eve and I am at work, which fills a void so I don't sit at home and feel sorry for myself and the fact that my significant other is no longer with me. It makes it hurt a little less, but I have to be honest in the fact that I am nervous about the long weekend.
Most people are thrilled to have 4 days off to themselves, away from their jobs, to relax and run errands and do all the things they don't normally have time to do. I guess I am simply afraid of feeling lonely, trying to motivate myself to clean my apartment and spend time with people. I have a hope that I don't just lay on the couch and cry. I am conflicted because maybe that is what I need to do. Maybe I need to cry one in a while to let it out.
Either way, I know I will be ok.
It's okay to cry! It's good to cry! It's also okay to feel better after you're done!
ReplyDeleteOkay, ditto to Ash's comment. You may just want to set aside some time for yourself to have a good cry and maybe set a limit so you don't get too lost in it or maybe not set a limit...you know yourself best.
ReplyDeleteI am sorry that this weekend will be tough for you. I don't know if it helps, but this weekend will be tough for me because I will be with family. I am already more depressed. Yes, either way we will both be okay. Merry Christmas to you Liz. Stay connected this weekend even if it is in blogging.
Take care,
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